Tuesday, April 28, 2009
I kept telling myself that as long as I controlled the damage, I would be okay. That I would come out of it and be completely and totally untouched.
In retrospect, our non-relationship was on my terms, start to finish. I made all of the bad decisions, I chose to keep going back there, I knew full well the consequences and what I didn't mean to him. So I honestly can't ever say I hate him, or blame him. He was completely fair and honest. He didn't lead me on, and he let me make my own decisions. Although conversely, I could hate him for not making the decision to say no to me every time I made those choices, but how could he possibly say no? He's a hot blooded male. I get it.
There's really no such thing as preemptive emotional damage control.
Good to know.